it used to be me on his phone, 2am in the morning, when he had whiskey on his lips and fire in his throat, and when all he ever thought was me, “babe i miss you” “babe i wished you were here” “babe i love you”. told me how much i meant to him.
but now all he has on his phone is another woman’s number.
but i wasnt too sure if i was disappointed that he changed, or i was just disappointed at the fact i thought he wouldnt.
but i didnt blame him you know, i told myself if i was good enough this wouldnt happened. things wouldnt have changed. if i was careful he wouldnt did me wrong.
but how could i fix this relationship? i couldnt. i had the same thing happened in my previous relationship. i forgave my ex and went back to normal but it got worse, he lied again and cheated on me. and if it could happen once it could happen twice and worse. im just taking precautions cos i cant take another stab in the the heart. i was stabbed once and it brought my life to hell. so im leaving, to find solace all over again. to find time to forget what has been done. to relieve the pain im having. idk how long it will take for me to love u the same.
so i told him i wanted to take a break and he agreed to it hoping he wouldnt say yes. hoping he would be sorry. hoping he will ask for another chance. but he didnt. he told me he didnt deserve another chance. i don’t understand why? if he loved me why was it easy to say yes. why was it easy to take a break? why did he say he deserved this? then he told me he wants whats best for me. but didnt he know he is whats best for me?